Exam results: miracles, and disappointment.

I really don’t know where half the year has gone. And I really don’t know what to think at the moment. I have my results back from my (traumatic) exams. I passed 3 of my 4 subjects – I somehow made it through Chemistry (passed by more than just a few points!? A MIRACLE.) despite being certain I’d failed – and Calculus 1 was my let down. Expected to fail one subject, but passed that and failed another. It’s like being crushed and being exhilarated at the same time… Resulting in confusion-wrapped nothingy-ness.
Now see here, punks. I didn’t study for Calc 1. It is the equivalent of Specialist Maths from year 12, and I only got into Calc 1 because I got exactly the cut off score. So I wasn’t too worried about that subject. For the weekly homework I did consistently really well, and so I assumed that I was going well and that I knew what I was doing. A mistake, apparently.
I failed Calc 1 by one point. One cursed point.
I’ve found this past semester actually very hard. And I mean, I haven’t even been partying, or participating in clubs or even really achieved anything other than study… And I’m not really enjoying my subjects. I’m just so bummed out. I feel as though I should have taken a gap year or done something – anything.
I’ve been wanting to get into dentistry – but I’ve been reading about it (on nothing reputable mind you) and it seems to be even more intense than this. More contact hours than my 24 hours? No thank-you.
So I can’t do Calc 2 which I was going to do this semester. What now? I’m going to work out what maths is easiest I think.
Between learning Japanese, Biol and Chemistry I think I’m already in over my head. But I would only be doing a maths to keep the dentistry option open – I’m confused about that too though, when I spoke to someone about it they told me it was recommended I do maths. Do I even want to do dentistry? And if I don’t, what do I want to do? If you can answer that for me, I will knit you a scarf. I can’t knit, so that will be interesting for both of us!
Unfortunately, I feel like Uni has lost all its lustre for me at the moment. Not the Uni itself, not the people – just the reason I’m there.
Why is that again?

I really don’t know where half the year has gone. And I really don’t know what to think at the moment. I have my results back from my (traumatic) exams. I passed 3 of my 4 subjects – I somehow made it through Chemistry (passed by more than just a few points!? A MIRACLE.) despite being certain I’d failed – and Calculus 1 was my let down. Expected to fail one subject, but passed that and failed another. It’s like being crushed and being exhilarated at the same time… Resulting in confusion-wrapped nothingy-ness.

Now see here, punks. I didn’t study for Calc 1. It is the equivalent of Specialist Maths from year 12, and I only got into Calc 1 because I got exactly the cut off score. So I wasn’t too worried about that subject. For the weekly homework I did consistently really well, and so I assumed that I was going well and that I knew what I was doing. A mistake, apparently.

I failed Calc 1 by one point. One cursed point.

I’ve found this past semester actually very hard. And I mean, I haven’t even been partying, or participating in clubs or even really achieved anything other than study… And I’m not really enjoying my subjects. I’m just so bummed out. I feel as though I should have taken a gap year or done something – anything.

I’ve been wanting to get into dentistry – but I’ve been reading about it (on nothing reputable mind you) and it seems to be even more intense than this. More contact hours than my 24 hours? No thank-you.So I can’t do Calc 2 which I was going to do this semester. What now? I’m going to work out what maths is easiest I think.Between learning Japanese, Biol and Chemistry I think I’m already in over my head. But I would only be doing a maths to keep the dentistry option open – I’m confused about that too though, when I spoke to someone about it they told me it was recommended I do maths. Do I even want to do dentistry? And if I don’t, what do I want to do? If you can answer that for me, I will knit you a scarf. I can’t knit, so that will be interesting for both of us!

Unfortunately, I feel like Uni has lost all its lustre for me at the moment. Not the Uni itself, not the people – just the reason I’m there.

Why is that again?

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