Being back into the swings from mid-semester break, I faced a difficult time last week. I was being very hard on myself. I was putting so much pressure on myself, that I wanted to breakdown last Friday afternoon. I was screaming in frustration in my practice room when I couldn’t play a phrase that I had been learning since the start of the semester. I wanted to do get back on track, and to be able to do very well in order to get good grades to get into honors. I was in a total mess last week to be honest!
This week I have been much better. I have been kinder to myself. I had been taking learning in the best manner as I can – being calm, relaxed and taking big breaths if I couldn’t get things right. I have been listening to myself better than I have been before, and stopped practicing when my body and arms tell me, “Please no more.” I exercised, and kept myself fit this week more than twice a week. I swam 3km on Tuesday night, then swam again before work on Wednesday, which was another 1.5km swim!
Things are looking up I think. The best thing I can do is just be strong person, try to be positive as much as I can, and have as much support from my friends and family. Just taking my time to enjoy things just for a little while in the moment. Doing things that makes me feel better in terms of happiness and feeling positive about myself. I think having a clear mind by taking care of myself in both mental and physical health is a key thing as a tertiary student. I think that is important that one should have.
I had also been looking forward to more exciting things ahead. I am recently preparing for an accompanying gig that is going to be very exciting! I’ll be doing a rehearsal with one of the vocalists that I will be working with next week, and also be having a photoshoot next Saturday down near Bendigo! It’s going to be another busy period, but it will be very worth it, and a huge achievement that I will be accomplishing soon. I’m also involved in Access Connections, as a mentee, which is a mentoring program for Uni Melb students assisting with their aspiring career pathways. So far, it is going great! I had my first meeting with my mentor, and she’s really nice! I’ll be looking forward to our future meetings, and will be doing lots of exploring on music teaching!
So, yeah. Things are looking up for me, and I can never be more grateful for what’s more to come.
I hope everyone is well. 🙂