Burnt out? why

Hard to come up with why i am not fulfilled?

i do maintain quite a good healthy lifestyle. work, play rest.
This sem: i am quite active at socialising. went on a trip with the mountaineering society for the whole weekend, doing kayaking, bushwalking and rock climbing. Rock climbing was fantastic,
u need to plan ur each step and achieve it with physical prowess.
also i am playing more of my favourite hobby soccer too.

anyway, what troubles me mentally now become an acceptable thing now. i am tired of always trying to conquer it with my philophy. pressure and stress are part of life as they say?
2nd yr laws are harder because legal theory sux. so hard to understand dense philosphy. not happy that i am struggling even i am trying quite hard.

“is that life too”?

knowing the difficulty(the time it takes) of uni essays, i am not doing enough. i am not preparing/studying hard for the essays.
Knowing the problme and not doing enough for it is debilitating.

3rdly, talking about fun, i tried to find a gf since from the last christmas break. no luck.
move on, i am bound by law to study. the onerous duty is heavy, i am mentally tied down already. 🙂 (here is a chance girl, i am telling that i am free. 😛 lol i am tired of asking and getting a rejection)
i guess i do regret the opportunity i had and missed. i don’t have the instinct to express myself on the spot. i am not used to flirting, i am too formal with girls. time to put the misery away.

But my philophy is not giving me strength.
here are my mental codes of trying to live a happy life
“i am always trying to make my life simple and hence my mind clear”
“awake in the moment, my way would then appear”
LIVE TRUE TO MY NATURE,
BE STILL, BREATH, LOOK DEEP INSIGHT, RECONNECT WITH LOVE.

…..doesn’t work lately for me. prob need to REALLY SLOW DOWN AND THINK AND BREATHE.

maybe this is why i never feel fulfilled when i go to play. eg i had nearly a whole day break on this sat. went to yumcha with the international law society. ( great society, friendly ppl)
then to a pub, then some random 2-3 hours tv shows, a bit of running. also some family time. I restraint myself ot stay up late and watched a movie.
The next day: i still felt lazy!!! not in the mood to read law stuff.
self discipline gone.
i have to be strong. Christmas is coming. is always coming.3 months break.
this is the time to work. this is my 3rd last yr at uni. 🙂

no real issue/problme. don’t sook too much jim.