SWOTVAC and Procrastination (Fine Arts)

Again. Not representing entire faculty :L just me. #responsibleblogger #misleading titiles

FIRST COMES THE CAUSE:

This is a post. On procrastination *says I as I proceed to close le Netflix tab with The Paradise episode 5 playing* mmm *coughs forever*
So…Recently, depending what you consider recent…I was subtly (depending what you consider subtle) grilled about alllll the work I presented…by a few *coughs* the whole group crit. They basically agreed I was unsuccessful and shallow and confusing. *many adjectives* *is chagrined* *is grillled* is *chargrilled* :L

This had a flow on affect.

It put a halt to my practise. I just stopped. It made me even more uncomfortable to be in the studio because everyone around me was being appraised and I was not. Every time I had tried to re-invent up to that point, it was not good enough. I was so determined to devalue myself (bad habit); to open up my pores with the heat of the moment, and adsorb the adjectives of the day. I moped. Then I procrastinated. And have been doing so for a while. I believe the moping period is necessary, a couple of days BUT….

Procrastination is a form of self-sabotage.

SECOND COMES IDENTIFYING UNHELPFUL MINDSETS

Here is a list of things I shouldn’t have ignored:

1. Up until the moment of the group crit. I liked and had, had fun creating what I presented.
2. My discordance with the sort of people who all happened to be in my group crit. This included being worlds away in things like politics, recreational activities, views and values and ideologies. Very BIG things that would deem them an as inconsequential audience to the sort of work I want to make (and vice versa).
3. I didn’t like their work either. And though it’s contradictory, I still think I can give unbiased evaluation because I know what it tries to do AND because my mind can work in similar ways except I just don’t take myself so seriously when it does. I should have IDENTIFIED moment where people have not done the same.
4. NO ONE ELSE had let such things affect them. Partially because I’m a black sheep and their work is favoured by different tutors. Partially because confidence and charisma keeps people from devaluing their work. But also partially due to their mindsets of NOT GIVING A *&^#

I didn’t observe myself or the environment I was in. I didn’t assess the people being productive. How and Why.

BACK YOURSELF HARD. When the sun shines the next day, you don’t want to wake up changed for people you don’t intend to please for the rest of your life. You want to wake up as you. Oftentimes we feel sad because we are not the best we can be or that we cannot embrace what we are. We do not really want to be other people even though they get praises we would like and who are productive the way we’d like to be,  it is more likely we want to know what it feels like to be in ourselves with qualities we see in them. And just as they will get praised by people who resonate with them; one should be patient for their own people to come along.

And if they aren’t your people. WHY are they affecting your productiveness and worth. Even if your clever brain can think of reasons. Convince yourself they’re excuses, BACK YOURSELF HARD (not up against a wall though). Like get muscles. Do pushups. Work on that back.

THIRD COMES TAKING PROGRESSIVE ACTIONS TO BE PRODUCTIVE AGAIN

Tl;DR. Avoiding procrastination that makes you sit at your laptop all day:
(1) watch that episode and while it’s inbetween changing to the next, QUICKLY flick to another tab. (no need to open a book or pull out a canvas…yet…because let’s be honest…no.) Minimal effort first. Contrary to tackling the hardest task first.
(2) think of little idle things you can do. like the smallest inconsequential task. checking e-mails or a phone call to RACV that you need to hit off your list. Get that thing up on your screen.
(3) If you can bring yourself to do that thing. do that thing. if you can’t. another episode for you. While watching the episode though, tell yourself honestly “I like this but it’s bad for me. I need to stop. Stop. Stop. This is not fulfilling me or helping me get the things I need to get done.”////something like that. No insulting yourself though, I prohibit it.
(4) After feeling a little pointless and dissatisfied in your procrastination. Do that thing you opened. Then scribble a list of little things to get done in order for you to get done what you want to get done. Include a slight indulgence, and some fresh air. Even if that’s just air on your way to the library.
> read the article
> take notes
> form arguments
> COFFEE
>section points off from notes
> TEA TIME
> Write intro etc etc.
>take bus to MC and go to State Library
Location can change things.

And repeat to yourself that you DON’T CARE ABOUT QUALITY. No matter how great a perfectionist you are. Even if that inability to achieve perfection is what makes you procrastinate. KEEP IT DOWN. Ignore it. Just type type type type. Just to get your body onto the train of momentum.

You’ll find you indulge yourself a little and have smaller breaks. But repeat, and it slowly builds up your momentum and drive. Breathe deeply and be exited for no reason.

And that’s all folks.

Was that helpful? Probably not. #I’mjustalittlegirlIknownothing

GOODLUCK STUDYING FINE ARTS DOESN’T HAVE EXAMS

I’m jokie. we hab folio. I’ll do another post after studio assessments :L Hopefully with cats.

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