Pre-exam thought, or two

Holy crap! An epiphany of sorts?!

Life isn’t a one-shot end-game kinda dealio.
Being successful is not the opposite of being a failure, if anything the two concepts tend to feed from each other. And it’s all relative, anyway. I’ve noticed a lot of students who get caught up in reaching one career that anything less than that seems like the end of the world.
Everytime I think up a possible career path it turns out I’m not good enough at multitasking constantly enough that I can do well in subjects and run a household (keeping animals fed, the house from falling apart and/or killing us), and studying itself… doesn’t appear to be my forte no matter how much I love a subject, and matters like money step in my way and kind of shatter all of my plans.

Even if I fail this subject right now, it’s not the end of the road. It’s just a stumble onto a different path. And that sounds rather wanky and I almost regret typing it, but I do think it’s true.

Sure, I don’t have enough money to relocate to study, assuming I can get in anywhere. Sure, I could probably do better in my studies if I made everyone in this house pick up their own slack for once (eesh). Sure, I could be studying right now instead of typing.

I was thinking about it, and I think I’d like to do something useful with my life. Or at least, something useful in my eyes. At the moment I’m looking at doing teaching. It’s actually been suggested to me a few times that I try teaching (oddly enough twice by first-years during orientation) but I didn’t really consider it because, well, the ewww teaching! is a hard gut reaction to extinguish (picked that one up after seeing the way my high school classmates treated my teachers haha). But I think I might be able to get in, I mean, unlike with psychology the bar isn’t as high (83 average *splutters and dies*) and I feel like it might be more personally gratifying to begin with.

We shall see. Hoping I can get into either Melbourne Uni or RMIT. I’d really love to stay at MelbUni but I’ll take what I can get!

PS:  you can tell it’s swotvac time of the year when I find myself buying 3kg of local honey.
http://www.farmhousedirect.com.au/waggledancehoneycompany/12-x-240g-combo-pack
Oh dear, creamed vanilla honey. <3