Random thoughts from the past few weeks

I haven’t forgot about blogging and I am still alive at uni.
I just jogged down some random thoughts and now I am going to share them.

Before that an overview: after having a reflection of these thoughts I sum up the past few weeks: Feeling insecure (scared that I am failing): likely to feel jealous of other people, then can’t focus on doing my own task, becoming lazy
It is a vicious cycle. Just got to stay with the basic. Try to enjoy life. The best way is ot believe in ur goal and continue moving in that direction. Have hope ! Just got to work hard because it is studying time. remember we have in total 4 months of holiday time too.
For some law survival tip: don’t forget the airport website. (one more tip: to help understanding the content, check out other stream’s power points)

Feelin shit under pressure, stress, –no Confidence; make me feel comfortable, make me focus , w/o it, I feel the dauntingness, not good enough, self doubt NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

First yr was better
2nd yr: doubts: (first yr I was happy because I had faith, I had blind faith. )
Solution: I should keep going , this is the right way to go, once uni is over it is over. I will have less time to learn. don’t doubt urself, if today is my last day,

Workload
Thinking about how much I have to learn. Life sux.
Puts me down. Run away, run away, I wasted my time doin nothing.
Solution. Focus on my own task, If I can improve on my task, I will improve, get closer. Thinking about any other things: slow down my result)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Giving up only make it worst.

Essay/class content
Much more work. Required much more independence. Bigger class, less participating. It is crap. Enjoy ur first yr.
Reflection on Legal theory essay preparation : stop relying on people,I try to get a study group going. Other ppl are busy, they have to keep their work too.
BE INDEPENDENT!!!!!!!!write down what u know, build on it, I have to try
Tip All about argument map. Write out each premise within your reason. Then able to identify/analyse the assumption/evidence behind the premise.

I think planning the essay using the high school style is inadequate. The 2000word essay requires a lot more deeper analysis.

Not relying other: for my own good, long term (even short term too, hf challenging)
Uni: traning: come on

Be like a man, accept my responsibility. I have to help my parents to do choirs!!!!!!!. This is imposed

RANDOM THOUGHTS:

REASONSING: ALL BASED ON assumptions?
Smartness=work hard, no flute

Feel sad
I hate doing things I suck at, assumption: I need the mark to be happy.
getting shit mark brings shame. Why shame, get lost, I don’t care what people think of my ability. Levinas said everyone is unique. Juding/comparing people is unfair. Reducing uniqueness So get the hell out.)
· Mark=happiness? (temporary happiness, )
o Mark=jobs, &Long term success
(NO, depends on work experience too, networking)
I am losing my philosophy.
I am jealous of other people. I forget about each other’s uniquness.
I should be enjoying the process, not the result.

?? or is the work too hard, boring, and I am getting shit marks. What is this
No: it is not boring. Interesting issues. It is hard, but this is the price. (I had a 3 month break already, dude) Study brought happiness too, learning. REMEMBER??? THE EXCITING TIME OF FINIDNG OUT OR WANTING TO FIND OUT the truth COME ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am not enjoying, it is mentally hard.
I am ambitious. When I failed to get to my expectation. I feel shit.
Get real. U know ur own circumstance. Eng Is not my strong pt. I am not working hard enough, I have wasted plenty of time during high school. Yr 7-10 High school education did not train my brain. Only now I am really thinking at a deeper level. How can u expect to improve that quickly.

PRESSURE: NO NO NO NO. (plan ahead, plan for the fun time to release the stress)
I HAVE TO TAKE THE PRESSURE. IT IS LIFE. WE ALL NEED TO FACE IT. LEARN TO OVERCOME IT. (context, when I am feeling down)

No why don’t i want to live the way I want , scared of people laughing