Chapter Forty: A Year (~jinghan)
“Apparently it’s the year 12 vce english exam today. God, what did you expect this year would be like this time last year?” my friend asks me.
And thoughts and feelings strike me like a tsunami.
I remember – no – I feel the nervousness in the weeks before the exam, but then I feel the calm and acceptance I felt as I lined up outside the exam hall.
I recall thinking that I knew everything of the world, that I knew myself, that I was sure of the future.
I challenge you. Think back a year. What comes to your mind? Have you discovered more potential in yourself than you thought you had?
I feel like I have just walked another mile after thinking that I was tired… but suddenly I no longer feeling tired at all.
“Apparently it’s the year 12 vce english exam today. God, what did you expect this year would be like this time last year?” I type into my phone and send to a friend.
My god.
You’re right.
Holy pie. I remember nothing of the English exam, except how dodgy the analysis question was.
I remember feeling weirdly calm beforehand, even though everyone else around me was nervous to a point where it could be felt in the air… It wasn’t that I was confident, it was that I’d reached a point where VCE had broken my spirit and I just wanted it all over!
After the exam my friends and I went and baked a cake. I was feeling numb.
Stupid… Voxy? Was that it’s name? Hahahaha!
I actually thought to myself, this time next year I will be nearly through my first year of Uni. It freaked me out more than the exam!