My results[Daniel]

It’s a funny thing to look at your results and know that the mark you recieved was unfair. Even before the results came out I knew, in my heart of hearts, that this subject was going to get marked down regardless of what I put into them, my premise, my point of view was against that of the tutor. I don’t mind a critical analysis of work, but simply saying something is wrong doesn’t help me at all, it only makes me less likely to develop my own point of view. I…. I don’t know, the moral of all this is more or less if you don’t think you’re getting anything out of a subject, switch it otherwise you’ll feel that you’ve wasted a subject.

Of course you can say the opposite for a lot of things, you find a tutor, a subject, even just a group of fellow students that you enjoy, then stick with them. You know that you’ll be getting something of value from the subject.

It’s strange … even now I find myself getting furious about what happened and knowing that if I just swallowed some pride and wrote exactly what the tutor wanted (a piece agreeing with his views) then I’d be alright I’d have a decent mark. Just without freewill, selfworth, or any semblance of integrity. Sigh* it’s still infuriating even after writing this, that or the other…. Gargh I really should just let it go, but it just irks me so much that .. I don’t know. It’s enough to turn a person off writing forever. My own sabatical from writing (not just here but on another blog, my own hardcover, online) is proof enough of that.

I will work at the problems found in my writting, regardless, but there is no way that I will let it be degraded to such an extent that the critic against it has no basis other than personal preference. I’m allowed to have an opinion, in fact I’m supposed to express it to the extent that it leaves me breathless, but no, that’s not the viewpoint of all tutors at Melbourne University. <- That’s not to say that all tutors have this fault, it’s entirely the opposite,  I’ve had a range of great tutors that have helped clear up expression, and clarify ideas, which has lead me to have high expectations. This tutor has failed that perception and has left me feeling dissapointed after 2 and a half years of happiness at university.

It’s horrible to wake up to this realisation that not everyone at uni will teach you right. Kind of like noticing that Santa isnt’ real or that your parents didn’t get together in a fit of disney “true love” romance. It’s dissapointing… actually hell it’s the most dissapointing thing I’ve had all year, a tutor who didn’t teach :/

As for holiday stuff not related to uni, I’ve had three 21sts in a row (+ work), a holiday in Mt Macedon and a subscription to Voiceworks (cool young and Australian writers).

Anyway till I work down my previously posted list – Cya!

Daniel/Yoddeuss