Turned Upside Down (Nicole)

I know I haven’t been writing for a while, but these past couple of weeks has been crazy, and hectic. I’m mostly taking care of myself, and such, and sometimes it can be tough when you need to juggle with uni, work, and ect. I really don’t know how should I feel about it.

I’m going to keep this short but, I had a recent close friend of mine from uni past away. I only just found out on before I went to bed at 1 am in the morning last night. So, yesterday has been an okay day. I was doing pretty well yesterday, mainly because I was going through my day back-to-back, until when I had a moment to myself. Things went downhill from there. Luckily, I had my friend with me while I was trying to practise, and I burst into tears when I looked at my friend, trying to smile like nothing happened. That was probably a 10/10 breakdown. I really now dislike breaking down at uni, especially in our practise rooms.

Another thing happened was when I was at work, and let’s just say I survived. Probably not going to elaborate on that.

Also another thing happened during Week 5. Mainly because I was supposed to go to New Zealand to have a decent break for once, but forgot to renew my passport; it was just expired! I was really upset, as I haven’t had a break after I had started second year early, by taking a summer intensive.

So, I’m just writing to tell you guys I’m still alive, but doing alright. I know everything happens for a reason, but there’s been too many things that is happening at uni, studies and myself. I don’t even know whether I’m keeping up mentally. I am mentally confused, and questioning myself, “Is this what second year is suppose to be? I probably don’t think so.” I probably never realise how much I have been through, and I should be proud of myself that I’m still standing, and getting up every time I have my downs. It’s all about moving forward, and trying to never look back. It’s like being on a treadmill kind of thing.

Other than that, I have been writing in my other blogs though have a quick read, if you’d like!

Recovering from Surgery in my personal blog, Adventure Time with The Muso, and my first ever, Uni Melb Adventures blog post, Student Complete when Connected!

A few nice announcements!

• I finally got tickets to see University of Melbourne Symphony Orchestra! Everybody should definitely come! It’s free, and it’s super amazing!
• My special consideration application got accepted for Music Performance 3! So, my practical examination date will be pushed back! Yay!
• I am back in piano teaching!
• Coping okay with the support of the MCM community, and my friends
• Acknowledging is the best thing you can do now. I love my friends, and the support that is given from them. My friends makes my uni life much easier, and fun to be around! I’m glad that they are super supportive, and great people to hang around.
• Got my flu jab from work! YAY!

I am hoping I can post frequently like I am in the past, but I’ll be taking a break for a few weeks after what has happened. Maybe I should write myself a list on what was positive for the last month, or so. I don’t know. I’ll come up a way to recover from this event, and be myself again. I really have no idea what to think. I’ll work it out like always.

I’m very thankful that MCM is helping students cope with this type of event. I’m so thankful that they are happy to adjust our studies with this type of event.  I’ll be getting an extension on my essay from the executive director from the con, that is due next week, and probably my other one that is due in a few weeks time. 

Much love,

Nicole