Screaming in silence (Sophie)
Excuse the horrid emo style title of this post but I feel the following word requires some sort of emo style emotion –
*EXAMS*�
Because of this word I will be in a fairly strong hibernation over the next 3 or so weeks. I’ll try to get some updates in but they will be irregular at most. I’m really scared and stressed about this whole exam thing. I have desperately high aspirations for what I want to achieve and my greatest fear is somehow despite putting a ton of work into study…failing to meet my expectations/hopes.
Right now I’m in the process of ensuring I’m fully up-to-date with all readings so far for every subject. Then it’s going to be a week of practicing things like tutorial questions, things I didn’t quite get ect….then hopefully 2 solid weeks of practicing past exam papers.
Feel free to share any advice for the upcoming study process.
I realise I have to make a few fundemental changes to my current lifestyle.
Firstly I’m focussing on my health. That means tonight I didn’t attend a party B invited me to. *cry*. I wanted to see people and socialise. J did come over for dinner however, which was nice – and he left early so I could do some more study.
Secondly I’m doing my best to get rid of time wasters – such as cutting the internet from my life except for 15 minute daily email checks (neccessary for my committements). Plus tomorrow I’m telling Target I can’t work until after my last exam. My social life is probably going to become fairly non-existent too – but there will be time for that after exams I know. Stilll; I realise the importance of taking a bit of a break now and then, so will try to fit a few things in.
This Wednesday I’m being ‘sworn in’ as Social Secretay of the Political Interest Society! Exciting exciting! Our new President seems totally fabulous, and all the other people elected seem very cool too, so it should be a great team to work with.
Anyhow,
I can’t believe the time already. I need to sleep. Tomorrow is a busy day. It’s mother’s day, i’m working at Target for a few hours and I’m playing tennis immediately afterwards. Gah! I get SO SICK of being at tennis clubs sometimes. After being at the local club every Saturday morning by 7:45am…there comes a time when tennis courts remind you merely of the fact you lack sleep these days!
Lol…not that I would change anything.
On a side note: I got my black boots from DJs. I love them!
Take care everyone,
Sophie
Actually Soph, my advice would be as follows;
(a) DO go to parties and socialise, damnit! Part of looking after yourself is enjoying yourself and letting yourself go sometimes. That means BE NORMAL.
(b) It’s only first-year, Soph. That’s not to patronise and trivialise but instead to say that it gets worse. Do you think you could stand another few years of stressing like this? Soph, you are NOT just a grade at the end of the year. You’re not Sophie H2B, Sophie H1, Sophie F or Sophie P. You’re Soph, pure and simple, whether you pass top of the year or fail spectacularly. There’s more to life than that, Sophie dear (a good example of that would be being happy and proud of yourself no matter what), and you know it.
(c) Don’t stress because I’m pretty damn confident you’ll do well. I’ve seen how hard you work already, and it’s crazy!
(d) Enjoy.
xoxoxo
jez
Yes, jez is right. Mark doesn’t mean everything. And at the end of the day, ur hardwork will always pay off. That is my personal experience. If i do some extra reading outside the course, it actually helps me later down the track.
Acquiring the knowledge is the most important thing.
I hope u pioritise things, happiness, health, study are more important than money(work). Try to cut out ur expenses/materialistic things. So u have more time
by the way, ur entry is fun to read.
take care
Sophie,
Ur schedule is too busy. just do what u feel is the most important. maybe cut out ur jobs altogether. Save up ur expenses and u will have less need to work.
Anyway, what u put in will always be rewarded. My personal experience is an example.
But keep in mind that mark is not eveything. The ultimate purpose is to acquire knowledge. So be happy of what u have learned. Regardless of ur exam mark, the knowledge will be with u always. this means u will succeed in ur job and get to where u want to be.
hf.
Thanks Jim. I’m definitely trying to relax more and look after my health. I have really high expectations of myself so it is hard sometimes to chill out and remember that marks do not define you as a person.
I’m trying hard to have fun though!