In Limbo… interrupted (Gianina)

Imagine yourself in your last few weeks of 1st year uni. You have just gotten yourself a relatively well-paying job, and your other commitments are going well. Then suddenly everything goes upside down because of one word: Cancer.

That’s what happened to me just recently.

At the end of week 10, I was diagnosed with blood cancer after being seen by several (as in at least a dozen) specialists in hospital. It didn’t really quite sink in – I had to undergo alternating stages of shock and denial. Even then, I still can’t quite grasp what it would mean for me, my family and my whole life. Because there was a big chance that my treatment would include chemotherapy, my doctors wanted to make sure they had the correct diagnosis so seeked a second opinion from other specialists elsewhere.

I wrote this post (24 October – I just posted it today because I had another appointment at the doctor’s this week… I wanted to make sure that they won’t say that  it was cancer after all boohoo, before posting) after getting the results from the latter, and I am happy to say that it was a false alarm. Sure, I don’t get off unscathed but at least what I have is not malignant, and best of all it’s not cancer. I and my family can now breathe easy. And I’m back to my normal worries of whether I am going to pass my subjects or not, and whether i’m going to be sacked from my job (I haven’t worked for a couple of weeks now). Such worries as losing my hair, being susceptible to other cancers later in my life, and basically putting my whole life on hold seem worlds away now. And as my dad had just said, I don’t have to worry about only having 4 years to live – I could still graduate from degree after all 😉

 Needless to say, the events of two/three weeks ago have just been surreal, it’s like somebody else entirely has experienced those. I’m not really sure if I learned a vauable life lesson during that whole ordeal; I guess I should have, huh?

Oh well, those projects can’t get done by themselves, so I’ll get off the computer now.

Till next time.