First Week Smoosh

Since I can’t make myself finish the reading I should be doing (Rousseau, Locke, Hobbes? Seriously guys, sit down we have to talk), I thought I could at least do my neglected blog post. I don’t know if I can add anything particularly meaningful to the other first week perspectives but bear with me anyway.
So the first week was a reality check. The shiny beacon of post-high school life was made perhaps a little less shiny by the revelation of certain hard facts.
1. I’m still going to feel lonely and silly sometimes (often), especially among tens of thousands of the seemingly confident, purposeful and, actually, remarkably well dressed.
2. Homework still sucks (see above). We may have moved on to more adult learning but I’m still going to have to force myself to read about eighteenth century social theorists and (yuck) performative principles when, frankly, I’d rather just watch some Malcolm in the Middle.
3. Making new friends is hard, especially when you’re nervous and confused. I’m lucky to have a few people I know here already, but that really isn’t the point. In hindsight going to Arts Camp would have been a brilliant move because those who did go have thrown around adjectives like ‘epic’ and ‘ohmygodohmygodohmygodbesttimeeveerrrr’. Alas.

Those things aside, my first week was a relative success. Highlights include:
The grounds: Nobody seems to have mentioned how breath takingly beautiful Melbourne is. Oh my god, how can you not! The rain has only emphasised the campus’ beauty and makes it smell so good I just wander around in a kind of drunken stupor exhaling wildly. I know how a university looks isn’t wildly important, but I’m admittedly shallow by nature, and I can’t help feel that the combination of new and old, natural and manmade is a perfect backdrop for my aforementioned post-high school life.
Kere Kere Coffee: Best. Coffee. On. Campus. There is no argument. No debate. If I could physically mate with a beverage, perhaps marry it and have little beverages (little piccolo lattés HAHAHAHAHAHA :)) this would be the one.
MASS Barbeque: Ok so, guilty, I did actually turn up to my first Critical Thinking with Data tutorial a little drunk. Still, this may be extremely un-badass of me to say (and not a little un-adult) but how cool is it to able to drink at school. Just chilling with friends in the shade of South Lawn with a beer and a sausage was one of the best moments of my week.
My subjects: Oh so now she decides to actually mention something academic. Ok, so they may be complicated, at times boring, work heavy and even self indulgent but, people, how good is it to be actually learning and not just memorising and regurgitating. Favourites: Intro to Political Ideologies and, surprisingly, my IDF Philosophy, Politics and Economics. Literature and Performance has been disappointingly slow to engage my attention but the tutorial was lovely and what a booklist.

I’ve lost momentum a bit and I promised I’d keep this a reasonable length. So I’m going to finish with this. Melbourne is big and scary, and I don’t feel like I belong yet, but that’s ok. I don’t know when exactly I’ll feel like I do belong , maybe when I get my first grade or when I make my first real university friend or when I start cramming for exams, but I know earnestly that this is where I am meant to be. Now I just have to survive Week Two: This time its personal.

2 thoughts on “First Week Smoosh

  1. “I’m still going to feel lonely and silly sometimes (often), especially among tens of thousands of the seemingly confident, purposeful and, actually, remarkably well dressed.”

    I KNOW. What’s with all the people who dress like they’re on a TV? Maybe if it were Arts students ( 😉 ) it’d make sense, but in a friggin’ Chemistry lecture I was sitting next to someone who looked as though she’d just walked off a Chanel advertisement. I was sitting next to her in whatever it was I threw on. I certainly hadn’t coordinated my nails with my top. :/

  2. MMarsh (incredibly un-friend-like of me but what is your real name – sorry I kind of forgot…or got confused…or I’m too lazy to find your other posts and work it out!),

    I agree with you completely. The campus is gorgeous; I can’t get over it. And I love rain, so I get a little bit happy in my pants when the two loves of my life combine. Just wait till all the leaves are a-falling; I may self-combust!

    Yes, the reading for LitPerf/LP/L&P is, to be frank, stupid. (See my eloquence; I’m a regular Hemingway). I love Romeo and Juliet, but am yet to get thoroughly engaged in the lectures and tutes.

    Re: clothing – WHAT THE HELL IS WITH THAT?! I feel like I’m not allowed to wear jeans and a t-shirt. Luckily winter is upon us – I am much better at dressing myself in the winter. The crisis of clothing has been particular stressful to me of late; I actually need to go and buy clothes (therefore spend money – gah!) because it has dawned on me that I actually don’t own enough clothing to last a week. Ah, that’s Country Girl, right there.

    Until we meet (hopefully soon!) in person, Adieu.

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