Heaven Knows.. Anything Goes! (Johanna)
*dances* Things are starting to look up a little! I’m auditioning for Anything Goes for the Geelong Lyric Theatre Society. It will be brilliant – I’m auditioning for Hope Harcourt, the debutante ingenue (she sings It’s Delovely with her love interest, Billy Crocker). So, if I do get in, I’ll also have to travel to Geelong three times a week.. which will be slightly annoying, but I’d do it for my chance at a lead role. So, wish me luck!
As certain people would know, I have been practically incommunicado for the last half of semester. Feelings of isolation and despair, along with the whole gamut of negative emotions, have been swamping me. Life has been extremely hard, and there have been many day when I simply could not get out of bed, let alone go to class or attempt to have a social life. Luckily, it’s subsiding – I got a new job, I’m auditioning for a show, it’s almost holidays and I’ve been doing lots of exercise… it’s easier to feel positive when your life if full of bright, promising things.
I feel dreadful for how many classes I have missed though. I’m still doing my exams, except for the Archaeology subject I wthdrew from. It’s just been a bad semester.. so much to get used to, and I’m away from my family and everybody who loves me and cares about me. It’s just about the loneliest place to be.
Anyway – on to happy things! Or at least things I can be spirited about … my Dad is getting married. I suppose it’s a happy thing for him, but I have been angry. Now I just feel almost apathetic towards it…. sure, he’s marrying the woman who he had an affair with leading to the end of my parents marriage, but will be happy in the end? He asked my sister to play cello and me to sing at his wedding.. wedding? The word sounds strange. Like it’s for young people, women in white dresses being walked down the aisle by their fathers, nervous men lined up at the altar whispering to each other. Not my 50 year old father and his .. well, Taiwanese fiancee who is well into her 40s. Hmmmmrmrmrm
In olden days a glimpse of stocking was looked on as something shocking, now God knows, anything goes! I’m so excited about the show…
I’m glad that you are feeling a bit better about life. They say exercising is great because it releases something (The name has escaped me but it was on Legally Blond!) that makes you feel happy.
I think it’s fab you’re auditioning for that part. It sounds wonderful!! Best of luck. I hope you get it.
That sounds like a really complicated thing – with your father….I hope you find some kind of peace with it. I guess apathy is a form of peace?
Take care.
xoxo
“Exercise gives you endorphins, endorphins make you happy! Happy people just don’t kill their husbands…”
Apathy as a kind of peace, not sure! It’s peaceful for me because I don’t have to be consumed by being angry or sad or anything, but it’s not exactly the best sort of ‘peace’ to have between my Dad and I. Oh well, I’ll get over it.